Hello everyone, my name is Jaime I am 30 years old and prego with my third child (not planned) I have a 11 yo girl and a 2 yo boy... in my thinking I was good with 2..lol, however someone had different plans for myself and my body it seems .. so here i am!

This pregnancy has been like a horror movie since the day I found out.. I had a AWESOME job making good money, then all the sudden I got very ill in my first trimester.. needing to be in the hospital for at least 2 out of the first 3 months. I would go in, they would keep me for 4-5 days, let me out.. only to have me completely dehydrate and have to go back in. Needless to say I lost my job.

After the sickness started to settle.. my dear aunt whom I was very close to passed away very suddenly, then 4 weeks later.. my grandmother whom i lived with my whole life passed as well. OK so now we have 3 months of total sickness, followed by two close deaths in the family... oh and the lost job....well on top of all of that I AM JUST SCARED!!!!!!!!! I have not felt ANY connection to this pregnancy once so ever, maybe once in a while when I feel her move I get the ahhh feeling but ......not so much. My husband and I have NOT been getting along at all!!! I just feel no connection to anyone... I feel completely alone and scared, and I dont know where it is all coming from. I know emotions run high during pregnancy but this is OUT OF CONTROL... I dont know if I am pushing everyone away and just assumming they don't care or if in fact they don't !!!!

I feel the worse for my two other children my daughter especially .. she gets the brunt of the anger and frustration, and although she is a *** and drives me slightly insane with the head and neck rolls..lol for the most part she really does try to help out, but I get so frustrated with her so quickly!!

There is just so much to this whole situation but the main problem is I AM PREGNANT AND FEEL CRAZY... I Cry nonstop, I feel like the whole world is against me, and I have NO ONE.. Not to mention I have this overwhelming fear of dying from this childbirth. WHAT IS GOING ON.????... I just want to feel and look normal again. If this continues I am certain something horrible is going to happen.

any ideas please let me know.
thank you and sorry for the long post.

Your hormones have you all worked up. I think you should go see a dr and talk to him/her. It sounds like your becoming depressed. I was like this when i was pregnant with jaz. Then after she was born i just fell in love with her. I hope everything works out for you and i'm sorry for your losses.

Pregnancy is enough of a stressor and to add everything else on top of it, craziness! You are definately in a funk right now. There are meds that are safe for you to take during pregnancy. Talk with your Dr. Tell him/her everything you just posted, they'll listen and understand. Then they can make a recommendation. I think they'll probably suggest an antidepressant. It doesn't mean you have to take them forever, but maybe it will help you right now. Good luck and keep us posted.

Jaime, I am sooo sorry that you are going through all of this.  I am, by no means, an expert, but it sounds like you may be severely depressed.  You have endured some major life changing events all at once.  Have you spoken to you Dr about how you are feeling?  S/he could recommend someone for you to see and talk to.  There is nothing wrong with feeling the way you feel....please just take the time to get some help. 

You are really brave for taking the first step, which is always the hardest, and opening up to us.  Best of luck!!  Shaila

None of us here are dr.'s but we can clearly see you are depressed.  It's no wonder with what you wrote about and all the hormones raging in our bodies.  I would highly recommend seeing someone....even if you choose not to take meds...I FIRMLY believe if you could talk to someone and say these things outloud on a regular basis, this may offer you some relief.

Please do talk your doctor, it is clear that depression is setting in and you really want to get a hold on it sooner than later.

we wish you well and any happy thoughts.  Also our condolences on your aunt and grandmother,

Kim